You get no “do overs” in life

May 12 2009

Planted my little raised garden this past weekend.  I wanted to try something new in the vegetable department and saw a fennel plant and said “sure, come to my house”.  It hadn’t been planted about 5 hours when I came back and saw that a bunny had chewed on a couple of leaves and pulled the whole plant out.  So I replanted it.  The next morning, the whole plant was gone.  Mr. Bunny had chewed it all the way down to the ground.  So, if you see a bunny and it has licorice on its breath, that is the one. 

I have been all nostalgic lately.  Life is zooming by and things I had wanted to achieve by now aren’t possible.  I will never be a child actor.  I will never be Miss America.  I will never be able to be Tuesday from the Addams Family for Halloween.  And by the way, never put on a Tuesday costume if you are over 40ish.  I still have nightmares of me in the movie “What Ever Happened To Baby Jane?”.  That is the movie with Bette Davis where she dresses up like a little girl and looks ghastly, right?   Most depressing Halloween ever.

So now I think “Grey Gardens”.  I will be Little Edie, I will be the crazy child-like adult who wears sweaters wrapped around my head and feeds raccoons that live in my attic loaves of bread.  I will dance and march around my house and imagine myself in my glory days, if I ever had some.  Who cares what anyone thinks?  That is the one nice thing about getting older, you become invisible.  I feel like I am invisible.  Like I am screaming at the top of my lungs and no one hears me. 

One response so far

  • Mindy says:
    May 14, 2009 at 5:21 pm

    Hi,
    There’s one thing left that you can do…and you can do it at any age and in your attic wearing sweaters tied to your ankles. You can write. You have a gift that I wish I had. I’m stuck in the mundanes and I can’t think or paint outside the box. Maybe it’s middle child syndrome. Start picking up those oversized paperbacks at the bookstore. There’s a lot of writing in there that reminds me of yours. Some of it’s stream of consciousness and other create a character or write about their own life and just let it out there. Sign up for an online writing course, or take one at the community college level. You need to get somewhere you can get intellectual feedback on your writing.
    Just a suggestion…..you have a creative spirit, take it in a new direction if the one you’re working in doesn’t do it for you anymore. Mindy

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